February 2011
So let's say that theoretically I really like you, and theoretically even though it sounds moronically cliché and overused, you give me butterflies. And just for kicks, lets add that all in theory of course you may be one of the most wonderful people I have ever met, and hypothetically my heart beats ten times faster when I see you. Do you think that you would supposedly (and in the most theoretical sense) feel the same way?
There will come a day when you realize that you don't just want a guy to be there to call you beautiful & hold your hand.
“You think you know who your true friends are? Just wait until high school & see who’s there for you when someone spreads a rumor about you. Think you’ll never do drugs? Psh, just wait until it’s right there in front of you & all your friends are doing it. Think you’re tough? just wait until, you say the wrong thing to the wrong person & see who backs down first. Think you’re smart? Wait, until you have an English essay, chemistry project, and a big math final to study for. Think you’re cool? Wait, until you’re the only one who doesn’t make the sports team, let’s see how cool you are then. You think you’re popular? Wait, until you can’t afford …the new “trends” that everyone has. Think you’ll never fall in love? Wait, until that guy looks deep in your eyes, tells your bullshit lies, and says he “loves” you. Think you’ll never get heart broken? Wait, until the same guy who said he “loved” you, is talking to another girl behind your back. Think you won’t have sex? Wait, until the guy you THINK you love says it’ll make you “closer”. Think, “nothing’s going to happen to you?” Yeah, wait until you’re sitting at the police station wondering how you got caught. Think you’re always going to be your own individual? Wait, until one day when you look in the mirror & see you’re just like everybody else.
"The way you're looking in your sleep, the way you're looking when you leap. The strange illusions that you keep. You don't know that I'm noticing."
